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Once as Blake, once as born

Can’t control … my soul is torn.

But then I found a beauty girl,

And she brought life into my world.

Even though I loved another,

She had my back and was my cover.

But then I finally realized,

Her eyes just got me mesmerized.

Her smile was killing me inside,

We finally kissed ... it felt so right.

After that we got together,

Your touch was soft just like a feather.

Your kiss was tender and with passion,

The love you gave killed my aggression.

Hold you tight and feel you breath,

Made me go down to my knees.

But then I saw the devils eyes,

And she came by as cold as ice.

I betrayed you just to play with fire,

I thought she could take me so much higher.

But then I fell down to the ground,

It felt inside like being in swound.

And now I’m strong, I’ve grown a lot,

But still there is this empty spot.

That cannot be replaced at all,

For you my heart still takes the fall.

In my head there is only you,

I hope someday you’ll feel it, too.

I had no right to treat you like this,

But your embrace is what I miss.

I’m sorry for all I’ve done to you,

Somehow I’ll make it up to you.

I’ll never should had leave you then,

For others Blake, but for you Sven.

I hope you don’t throw this poem away,

Cause it says what I want to say.

My heart has chosen and it wants you.

Everything I hear, life and breathe is you <3

unrequited love

how can he explain feelings like this?

how could a boy like him… Immature, evil, without any deeper meaning in life,

find a girl like her… sweet, beautiful, kind, a bit naive but all around an angel.

at night he sit’s in his room like he used to do every day thinking about her, missing her so damn much… looking at pictures of her, reading her old letters,

and listening to the kind of songs she likes… but nothing seems to help.

but since he knows her, he understands that there is more in life that just be the hardest every day and fight every fight there is to fight.

that there is more that just existence for the moment, there is something he never thought life would hold up for him… a future. 

the deeper meaning in life… and he found it in her.

he wants to be hers and only hers.

he wants to take her around the world, show her places she has never been, see and experience all the differences of life with her.

he wants to make every single dream of her come true.

he wants to take every pain, she may have to face of from her, so she never get’s hurt while he’s around.

she make’s him see things in a whole new perspective.

through her, he truly found deliverance from all this hate and pain which ruled his world so far.

so herby he swears to always honor and cherish her.

he goes down to his knees, 

lift his hands up and prays to which ever god there may be

even during the day his mind is all over her…

all he can think of is her face,

looking into those beautiful eyes, kissing those lips, touching that skin, seeing that smile.

she is his source of power because her presence is what like the touch of god.

but nothing could describe what he’s trying to say then those 3 magical words…

I love you…

words which are stronger than the ocean, the fire… simply everything, they can create beauty and misery at the same time. 

make you fly and fall, make you laugh and cry… 

but still he loves her so much…

 

written her name all over his walls, the only thing he can think of is.

"if she only knew"